instructions: write 10 statements intended to different people. never tell which one is who.

1. you know what, the one thing i hate most about you is saying one thing and doing another. I HATE IT. but i cant hate YOU. you treat me like dirt really, and you dont see it. all you can care about now is your new friends and your, suitors, shall we say? i have done so much for you but somehow you're completely oblivious. and you're a backstabber too you know. you dont see that i hear things. what goes around comes around. you think all the people around you can be trusted?! not really. sometimes you're completely two-faced and then i think, why the hell am i friends with you?? but then i see some good points and i'm reminded why. i wish it didnt have to be this way and that you would wake up and see, but i've been wishing too long.

2. its nice knowing that i can really really count on you yknow. i love you for that. i love the fact that you love me in all my taitai-ness. even though i'm mean sometimes and say unintentional hurtful things. I'M SORRY. but yeah. you're my number one too. and you should know that you can always always call me okay? and i promise i'll try to keep in touch more. i dont like the fact that we've drifted anymore than you do. but yeah, i love you. (:

3. thank you thank you thank you. really. you've been there for me when i was down, and you've always understood, which is the best part. and just think babe, 10 years already!! and i love how you can always find the right words to say and when NOT to say anything. i love you for your patience and the constant happiness that you have that seems to spread like wildfire and sometimes i feel really helpless when i see you in a state of broken-ness. so yeah. MUACKS. -winks.

4. i love you're sweet smses that seem to reach right through singtel and come straight to my little red muscular lubdub. i know that we've both drifted, but havent we all. and i know that sometimes i say things that make you feel lousy i dont mean to. but please! eat more okay. and i'll always always be your tofu. ugh.

5. sometimes i thank the lord that you're here cos i can really really really talk to you about anything and everything and you're one of the people i cant live without in school! just think, what would become of me if you werent always there, telling me that its okay to be last in class and asking me to shutup and study! you're one of my confidantes! -grin. and i thank you for that. you have no idea how much your motherly talk keeps me on the edge of happiness. and the talk of our no guys pledge seems to be wavering but it'll resume when sch opens and when we talk more! its amazing how you can eat so much though i wish i had your metabolic rate! HEH. but anyhoo. thank you thank you. no more talks of ahems and hunkys okay?

6. heyaa. you're one of the closest to me in sch okay, but sometimes i feel you always hold a certain part back that you cant bear to divulge. i understand though, but yet sometimes i wish that you feel more at ease with us okay? no need for the worries we arent backstabbers yeah? we still love you!

7. eh you. i like the way you call me and say you're my 'secret admirer'. hahaha, yeah. and i like talking to you on the phone cos it makes me feel that its okay to be imperfect. it actually makes me laugh and i like it that you missed me in school!! you're my makan buddy and confidante! so thank you thank you. psst. dont be too full of yourself after reading this okay.

8. i wish you'd act abit more happy to see me. it sometimes make me feel that i'm just someone to replace the first choice and i dont play second fiddle. dont you dare think about ever using me again cos you should know i wont fall for it.

9. thanks for acting like a total bitch most of the time. i know you're prolly menopausing but that doesnt give reason for being mean to everyone around you especially since we all do everything you ask. i still love you duhh. but yeah. dont be so mean all the time cos we can hardly put up with this kinda shit. and i dont need you comparing me with other people and wondering why i'm so stupid and fat. i cant take it from you anymore you just watch.

10. heyaaa. thanks for understanding me reasons okay? i know you'll prolly never read this but i'm sorry i had to treat you like that. i didnt want to but you made it necessary and i'm sorry to have caused you pain.


there all done.

i'm still in denial as you can tell.
i havent gone to get my report book and frankly, i'm in no mood to do so.
okay stop moping!
its ONLY 2 failures what.
no big.
oh wells i truly truly resolve to do better next year.
truly. although i know what i want is never going to materialize.
so haha! i'mgoing to get my homework from xuan tmr and i'm going to finish it by the 2nd week of december.
whoever sees me online must always always ask if i've done my homework!
okay? heh. -beams.
omg my new favourite song is ashlee simpson's give it al away.
i know it sounds very uhm. repetitve but oh man!
the lyrics connect.
to me anw.


This life's like livin in the gutter
All this pain just makes you feel dead


Slow down
Just look a little closer
You might find thats its not the end
You wonder how, your life can get better
When you're alone you just set yourself down


Hey girl, screamin for attention
Once you get it, you throw it away
And broken, I'm pickin up the pieces
I won't live in all your mistakes



nice.
oh btw. thanks eli and ness.
i'm not feeling all that lousy.
so yeah. love.
i didnt know you cared before cos all that was important to you didnt seem to have me included.
but now i know. so thank you thank you.

i'll think about it.

its amazing how pathetic you can make people feel.

hello hello!
finally some action! in my life i mean.
went to watch the incredibles!!
wit my sister cousin and uncle.
haha! the movie was damn good.
omg i totally loe edna mode!
so cute! 'dont make me beg ,darrling.'
although she does remind us crescentians of a certain short someone.
like ewwwwwwww.
and mr incredible looks like bien bien!!
HAHA. okay nvm.
hmm. went shopping wit the family the next day.
which was a sunday?! i think.
oh yeah. bought some earrings.
nothing much lah.
hiyahhh. bored bored.
byebye.

i cant be bothered to blog about my pathetic measly life!
but three cheers to bien bien staying on!
even though he wont be teaching us. -pout.
but if he's gonna be vp he's gonna be subkected to more torture in the form of official work!!
and if he's vp does that mean gpt is GONE!?
cos that will be totally HURRAHHHHH!!!
but i seriously doubt it.

raining again!! oh nvm i like the rain.
but yeahhhhh.
i'm like. frigging bored.
gahhh.
i rented some dvds so maybe i'll watch some later.
okay nothing much to talk about really.
see how boring my life is!!!!

newyork:
full of bright lights,
gum on the street,
hotdog vendors,
people smoking,
yellow taxis,
shopping places,
people looking me up and down as if i'm on display,
black cars,
rude shoving people,
but also kind nicely people who smile at you if there's eyecontact,
men who think women like to be winked at,
shopping,
tall buildings,
tourists like me!
hahah. busy busy busy.

wassup!
my brothers, both annoyingly similiar i might add, bark that line into the phone each time it rings.
maybe its the genes!
hell i never wanna do that.
its just cliche babyyyy.
but anyhoooo!!
newyork!
hahah it was wonderful the first night!!
(: after touching down i felt sick.
like. AIRsick.
no idea though.
felt like hurling in someone's lap and had a massive pounding in thy head!
but yeah.
felt slightly better on the way to the hotel in the limo.
its actually a sedan. black wit the tinted windows and all, so they call it a limo.
peculiar people.
the hotel was so... upclassy. thingy.
nice and big rooms!
for a change it was a hotel!
haha cos in london and england it was all our own place.
felt nice to not have to clean up!
ok so fine i'm a teensy-weensy bit spoilt.
yeah anw.
felt like sleeping in.
but they wanted to go "see see"
so okay lorh.
heh.
walked to times square! the famous one.
haha. really nice. bright lights, poster,traffic and all.
and the one thing that immediately caught my eye was this ahem get ready for it zee and fran,
HUGE CHOCOLATE STORE!!!!!
hershey's owns it, so all the brands under it were displayed in a variety of fonts all over.
so cool! but i didnt get a chance to go in at all so pooh.
yeah. haha saw this tourist shop that had a tee on display.
it said"texas has lost another idiot" and bush's face was there.
HAHA! friggin funny.
and there was this gigantic instant cup noodles thing on display. MASSIVE.
mammoth. wdvr. hahah and it lets of steam.
haha!
and so we got to this 24hour korean restauant.
good food! really yummy.
and hot! just what a cold mid-autumn night needs.
so yeah.
hahah the next morning four of us and uncle rick went to chinatown!
but before that we were wandering aimlessly around fifth ave.
THE fifth ave.
its like. where all the filthy rich people stay.
with all the black sedans and limos line the side of the road.
i mean, hello! cant you people get other cars that are not executive cars and not black!!
sheeesh.
and i saw the plaza!!
as in. 'THE PLAZA'.
the hotel?
haha its nice.
near my hotel. but its like. on the edge of central park.
oh and chinatown and fifth ave is soooooo diff.
you can really tell.
hahah chinatown, soho,noho.
all look the same!
cept maybe soho and noho is cleaner.
but yeah. my day was actually good!!
until we stopped at this deli, and when i was pondering what to drink
(cappucino or hot chocolate)
this angmoh walks buy and goes 'hey baby' to me
i'm like. WHAT.
so disgusting!! YUCKS.
nobody is allowed to hey baby me. cept the nonuts and the gang.
but no MALE is ever allowed to hey baby me.
later that night went to see a musical called hairspray!
hahah the guy is so dreamy. (:heehee.
3rd day went shopping!!
heh. didnt have dinner cos we had a full lunch! ate at chinatown again.
4th day drove to jersey to vist my dad's cousin.
had nice lunch! seafood. went shopping again.
went to the BIG apple store. haha.
kept pestering my dad for the ipod though i know it will never happen.
went for jap dinner.
repeat after me, KACHING.
haha so ex!
5th day.... uhm.
uhhhmmmm. oh yes!
statue of liberty aloha!
haha yes its actully quite small.
well smaller thani thought. around the same size and the merlion cept its on a stand.
they cheat!!!!!
haha. nice windy boat ride.
blah blah. forgot the rest?
went for UBER NICE ROAST BEEF PRIME RIB.
i tell you the whole trip is about food.
see i knew it!! i knew i was going to put on weight.
but yeah
on monday, before i left since my flight was at night, daddy and i walked 3/4 of central park.
which is like. 31 streets! and then when we walked back it was another 31 streets.
so do the math.
haha. okay its sooooo long.
nvm. i'll totally do another summary.
haha!!!

hello all!
hahah today's mah last day in glorious autumnish england.
tmr it'll be off to cold frosty ny.
hoho.
hopefully i'll go see the rockefeller centre or something.
heh!
i realised that usually all my sentences start with a H.
funny.
i'm purposely avoiding doing so now.
oh man i can't wait to get home please.
gahh it's 6 days in newyork!!
how how?!
i miss the nonuts terribly!!
see its all your fault nonuts!!
if we werent that close and if i werent so used to talking/seeing you everyday i wouldnt miss you so much!!
GAHHHH.
all your fault.
and kapish i miss my ANGEELLLL.
sniff.
and my bed and my pillows and my MAIDS.
sob!
okay. calm down.
hiyah!!!
nvm. just another 6 days.
okay. its cool.
oh i bought yumama some thing!
heehee. her perfect christmas present from marks&spencers.
haha. couldnt resist its ex though you better like it!!
and i bought a small pressie for fran and max.
wanted to buy a thong from h&m. which is a popular brand over here.
but tooo ex.
hahah sorry susilo! no more underwear for you.
and zee i couldnt find anything for you!
hahah but NO FEAR.
ny is better. heehee!!
and i bought xuan this beautiful butterfly thing! which is also expensive because of the damn pounds but hahah i'm nice!!
so you better not say i owe you presents!! PFT.
hahah okay lah my sister is breathing down my neck now so i better go.
farewell lovelies!!
love.

booyaa!
england is really quite beautiful.
hahah its a pity we cant get to see the wildflowers and the red/yellow leaves!!
its mid autumn now. and the leaves now have fallen, but there are still a few trees that are gorgeously auburn and autumnish.
haha!! so preetty!
today went to have fish and chips!
yum. but was a bit too much? felt like throwing up after that.
went shopping after that and bought new sweaters for ny.
saw nice faux pearls!!
wanted to buy cos it was rather inexpensive 3pounds which is arnd 9 bucks.
cos pearls are all the rage now.
haha and its nice to wear with my new sweaters!!
but nooo. mama refused to let me buy. ohwells.
anyhoo. wont be able to come onto the internet once i reach ny unless there's a business centre in the hotel.
and even then, if it isnt too expensive.
so yeah i'm coming on as much as i can over here in english country.
heh. aiyah better go lah.
i have to go tidy my room =X.
boooo.

haha i'm watching this oldies movie!!
called hitari! about the safari or something.
its damn cute there's this one part where this sobbing french madmosielle runs away and the elephants that she takes care of run after her and find her by smelling its so cute!!!
hahaha. oh wells. went to kingfisher club todayy.
haha the scenery on the way there was sooo nice!!
hahah its like acres and acresof green and golden and red trees lining the winding road.
so rowmannnnticckkk!!
hahaha.
anyhooo. i wish i could go home!!
damnit.
and yes zee. fresh bagels!!
oh and fran i made my own bed too!!
HAHAHAH.